Mommy what am I gonna be when I grow up?

If you are a senior, I am sure you have heard this before: "So, what are your post graduate plans?" Recently, my answers have come out in the form of indistinguishable sounds: "eh, er, eek, mehhh, meow." It sucks because I am usually semi-articulate and personable-- but to be honest, I am still figuring it all out! Strangely enough, I knew this answer at the beginning of my junior year. But things have changed-- I have changed. I am writing this post because if you are a senior too, I have a sneaking suspicion that you have gone through/are going through the same thing, or at least something like it. Is what you are going through OK? Yes. But is it normal? Yes. (Or at least I keep telling myself that). Should it freak you out? Not yet! (Or wait, should it!? AHHHH! YOUR LIFE IS OVER.... I kid, I kid.....P.S. remind me to ditch the advice posts in the future).

Before I went abroad, I pretty much had it down. Law school. (Yes, I actually thought I was going to law school. I know it's funny). But then I went abroad, I saw other parts of the world, met new people, traveled, traveled, traveled. Things change when you go through these experiences-- your life changes. Overall, I think that the change was, and has been, very positive. Great things happened to me while abroad but, when I came back home, I realized that I had no idea what I wanted to do. I did know this: I wasn't going to be a lawyer. What next?

When I hit this wall, my dad did what he always does. He challenged me. What do you love? When you really think about it, figuring this part out isn't hard. I love writing, film, music. I spoke to people about it, read a lot, checked out different classes I could take, did some hobby/job researching. And I actually found a lot of stuff: this semester I took a Creative Writing class, added a Film Studies minor, started writing for Versus magazine, started writing in my blog. I realized I love doing all these things. What's next? Helping out with the Vandy Film Festival next semester, taking MORE film classes, going to MORE concerts (gaaaah I love concerts), checking out even MORE cool, artsy stuff around Nashville (thanks again, blog!). Ultimately, even though I still don't know my "life plan," I'm starting to get an idea of what direction I want to go in. For now, I think that's good enough.

(FYI my current "direction" involves following the footsteps of Ms. Sofia Coppola. Check it out: she is GREAT screenwriter & awesome director. Her music taste also kicks ass-- this is evident in both her film soundtracks and the fact that her baby's daddy is Phoenix lead singer, Thomas Mars. Oh and she also makes me feel a lot better about my most recent fashion choices-- dressing up in boy'ish clothes can be cute! I mean what's cooler/comfier than converse, boyfriend jeans and cotton t-shirts?).

...One more thing: I am only going to have these "advice" posts every once in awhile--PROMISE! Happy holidays!